"The darkest thought I've ever had about me is probably the darkest one you could go to. I mean, almost everyone wonders at some point whether or not the world would be better off without them. I was at my lowest back then, Roxie. My girlfriend had just died because of me, her brother was in jail and he blamed me for her death. Yeah, I was crushed.

There were a couple of times I got hurt a lot worse than I should when I was on the streets because I was hoping that someone would take me down. It took a few people to build me back up. I still blame myself for what happened to her but I decided to use that to push me to help as many people as I could. Sometimes, I even do a good job at it." he said.

"Most women would be backing away very slowly right now after being told something like that." he said, smiling gently at her.

"The darkest thought toward another person? Melissa's brother. I wanted to kill him something awful for everything he's done. There were a few crooks along the way that I really wanted to skip the legal process with but keep them alive while I..." Joe stops mid-sentence because he can barely bring himself to say the word "torture".

His father would never condone such a thing and he was taught better than that, but some of the really bad guys he'd run into along the way deserved that at a minimum.

When the food came, Joe took a moment to compose himself, take a deep breath and smell the food, which made his stomach rumble, too. When the owner noticed their drinks were low, she brought them a bit more and then left them in peace.

"What about you? I wouldn't be surprised if the people that hurt you got a starring role in some of your less pleasant thoughts." he said.