She wanted to beg him not to say those words to her. They stung like the shrapnel that tore through her body. The only difference was that her body could mend in time, but her heart just felt fractured. And how fair was this for Ryan? He was a good man, a kind man who was goofy enough to make her smile and make her feel so... happy. Perhaps it was best that she continue to see Ryan, and just serve under Alistaire's command.

"I... you still find me beautiful, even like dis. You tell me dat, an' it makes me want to stay wit' you more. Jus' curl up in your bed by your side an' pretend de rest o' de world don' matter." She admitted, one of her hands wiping tears from her eyes. "But dat can' 'appen. It won' 'appen. I'll keep protectin' you, Alistaire. You will always be my best friend, but we can' sleep together no more. It wouldn' be fair to Ryan, an' ... I really want t'ings to work out wit' him. I want to feel like a person, not jus' a weapon or property. Like... a woman."