Vincent follows along, but ends up stopping in his tracks when Nicklas pushes the mug across the counter to him. He stares at it intently for a minute, before just looking away. He doesn't push it back. Not yet.
Does recovering from a bad spree of self-medicating really mean he can't ever have a drink again?
"I just... I still love her. I can't help feeling I should have been able to change along with her, so we could still be together. More than that, I failed right from the start with letting her be kidnapped and not being able to save her by myself.
She's happy now, and I'm happy for her, really, but.. how do I forgive myself for... for..."
He clenches his jaw and flicks his wrist, and Roxanne's face, called from his memory, shimmers into view.
"After the Kreenapping, all I had was regret and darkness, I didn't think I'd ever smile or be happy again. Joe is changing that. He's bringing that light back into my life again. Things aren't so heavy when he's around and - I'm sorry, I know you really don't want to hear this--" He flicks his wrist again and the image vanishes.
"I just don't know where to draw the line between not giving up hope and not moving on with my life."
Especially with there possibly being a new option.
Vincent didn't know at what point he had reached for the mug, but he was holding it between his hands now.
"Do you think... do you think it's right to try to be with someone if you know you're still in love with someone else? I've done more than enough wrong to more than enough people already, I don't want to make any more mistakes."
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Does recovering from a bad spree of self-medicating really mean he can't ever have a drink again?
"I just... I still love her. I can't help feeling I should have been able to change along with her, so we could still be together. More than that, I failed right from the start with letting her be kidnapped and not being able to save her by myself.
She's happy now, and I'm happy for her, really, but.. how do I forgive myself for... for..."
He clenches his jaw and flicks his wrist, and Roxanne's face, called from his memory, shimmers into view.
"After the Kreenapping, all I had was regret and darkness, I didn't think I'd ever smile or be happy again. Joe is changing that. He's bringing that light back into my life again. Things aren't so heavy when he's around and - I'm sorry, I know you really don't want to hear this--" He flicks his wrist again and the image vanishes.
"I just don't know where to draw the line between not giving up hope and not moving on with my life."
Especially with there possibly being a new option.
Vincent didn't know at what point he had reached for the mug, but he was holding it between his hands now.
"Do you think... do you think it's right to try to be with someone if you know you're still in love with someone else? I've done more than enough wrong to more than enough people already, I don't want to make any more mistakes."