Ilya's eyes flicker between the two of them. They're not angry at his screw up, and Topher isn't annoyed he went with Dolemeck's idea. No one is about to jump down his throat for how Ilya's been acting so far - so he's actually not sure what to do. He's always lived life with intense structure. This openness is hard to comprehend.

"I understand I'm not alone. I just... don't know what I'm supposed to do now that I'm not."

He doesn't want to do the wrong thing in the eyes of either of them, but they're indicating they want contradictory things, and he doesn't want to pick a side.