"Every problem I had, I diverted blame. I blamed Alistaire, my powers, everyt'ing around me so I would not have to face de reality dat I was to blame." She looked down for a moment before continuing to speak. "It was easier to blame others and my powers for what was clearly my fault. I went with Alistaire willingly, because I believed dat was all I deserved in life. But dat's not true. I deserve to be treated right. Wit' respect and love... but de minute I felt any o' dat, I sabotaged myself out of fear or some strange belief I was not worthy."

The envelope Alisa had sent long ago had a check inside, along with a short note that she was sending back her tuition, and that the school should keep the money. It also contained a shorter apology. One less sincere than what she was saying now. Then again, it was sent sometime ago.

"I doubt you believe a word I am saying. I do not expect you to. An apology like dis will not fix all de damage I had done overnight. It's not like waving some magic wand and repairing a broken bridge. It is more or less like taking duct-tape and holding it together, before it can be fully repaired. Fragile, shaky... but a start."