Letters from the Vault (Jean Luc LeBeau, Alistaire Shaw, Reiko, and Steve Coulson)

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After the chaos Alisa caused, SHIELD had her sent away to "The Vault", a prison for super human villains in Colorado. Already, she had not done well while in custody. Her powers were currently being suppressed, but word about her quickly spread. She had to be sent to the infirmary six times within her first week at the Vault. Not because she started fights, but because other prisoners wanted to fight her.

If the inmates were not bad enough, some of the guards were worse. It was clear that without all that anger, rage, and hate flowing through her from her powers... she was weak and vulnerable. Alisa LeBeau was not cut for High Society, much less prison. God, she hated when Brooke was right about things.


For the time being, Alisa was placed into an isolated cell, away from the other prisoners. No doubt they would return her to general population within a few more days. Then the cycle would start all over again. By this point, she had stopped trying to fight back.

After all the pain and misery she had caused the people in her life, it was time she had done some penance and be on the receiving end of the chaos and hate she caused. She decided that if people wanted to hurt her, to make her suffer for their pain, so be it. She had done the same to people for years, and it was about time she felt what she had done to others.

With her hand shaking, she started to pen the first of several letters to be sent out of this place. Perhaps she would be fortunate and get a return letter from someone...

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Letter to Jean Luc LeBeau

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Dear Father,

I have been a terrible daughter. I allowed my powers to control my actions, my feelings, and hurt so many people. No doubt I hurt you most, and I am sorry.

Prison is no place for me, nor is High Society. You were so right, and I was too filled with pride and power to realize it. Filled with some stupid fantasy that I was better than everyone else, and where I came from... and how I was raised.

Part of me wishes to scream and yell, to blame the world around me. But the fault lies on my shoulders, and mine alone. I abused my powers, my connections, my friends, and now there is nothing. It is like that old saying... power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely.

Father, I do not know where to go or what to do once I leave this place, if I leave this place. All I know for certain is that I will be agreeing to have my powers shut down. They are too dangerous, and I am too dangerous with them. I do not want to hurt anymore people or remain on an emotional roller-coaster that has no brakes or controls. I do not want to make life an utter hell for those I care for. This has to be done.

No doubt I will need a care-taker should I go this route, and due to me taking a nuke and vaporizing any bridges I had left. I have no right to ask you for anything, so I would understand if you refused to help aid me in any way.

Father I just... I am so sorry. Please forgive me.

Love,

Alisa B. LeBeau
Prisoner #1198B

Letter to Alistaire Shaw and Reiko

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*This letter is written in Japanese*

Dear Alistaire and Reiko,

I wish I could break down and just sob before the two of you, begging for forgiveness. But I doubt I deserve any from either one of you. I should have told you how my powers were effecting me, how they were allowing me brief moments of composure before just exploding into a chaotic event. You two are my true friends, and I lied to you about my wellness. I never wanted either of you to see me as I truly am.

Prison... is not a place I belong. The same goes for High Society. My actions, my instability hurt you both, and no doubt made you look bad. No matter how much I tell you "I'm sorry", it will not make it better, will it? Actions speak louder than words, and my actions... were horrific.

Alistaire, you once told me I brought all the emotions, and you were right. I was absorbing and allowing the negative emotions I need for my powers to control me, and give me a sense of comfort and power when I had none. I only thought about myself, and you no doubt have paid for that time and time again. Yet... you always remained my friend. My best friend.

I have decided to allow my powers to be shut down. They are too dangerous, and I am far too dangerous with them. I will only bring more chaos and pain if I am allowed to maintain and abuse them as I had. I cannot be allowed to hurt the people I care for most, anymore I just cannot.

This will leave me incredibly vulnerable, and more than likely useless to you. I have asked my Father if he could find me a caretaker, as I will undoubtedly need one once my powers are shut off. I have no clue where I will even go once I am released from here, and no clue if my Father will help me. I had hurt him as much as I hurt the both of you.

Alistaire, Reiko... I am so sorry. I beg for your forgiveness, and understand if you no longer wish to speak to me or be friends. I can never take back the hurt I caused. Please, forgive me.

Love,

Alisa LeBeau
Prisoner #1198B

Letter to Steve Coulson

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Dear Steve,

I doubt you ever wanted to see this letter, or wanted to hear from me again after the scene I made. I embarrassed you before your co-workers, your sister, and the world... and it pains me to know I did that to someone as sweet and kind as you. I sincerely doubt you would want a relationship with me after this, and as much as it pains me to say... I understand why.

You did not sign up to date some mutant who used her powers like a crutch. No, a mutant who abused her powers to feel powerful and good about herself, when deep inside, she's an insecure, and socially awkward mess. You deserved better than that, and I could not give it to you.

That being said, I am opting to have my powers shut down. As I told others, they are dangerous, and I am too dangerous with them. I will only continue to hurt people, good people if I am allowed to continue to use and abuse them. Without my powers... I do not want you to see me like that.

My future is currently uncertain. I have written to my Father and what few friends I may have left (which I doubt there are any after what I had done) and asked for his help. I would understand if he refused to help me, as I was a horrible daughter. I will however, pay for the cards he gave you, so you will not have to worry about that medieval like contract for my marriage. You will be free of it, and able to not have anything hanging over your head.

Steve, I am deeply sorry. I do not know if you believe that or not, and I cannot make you. I just ask that maybe, one day you can forgive me. And maybe... no. That would not be fair to ask you. You need someone... better than me in your life.

Please forgive me.

Love,

Alisa LeBeau
Prisoner #1198B